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Go, me. It's been like 10 months since I last posted an article thing on this front page and my actual changes to this site pretty much reflect that lack of changes to the front page. But yeah, I was just thinking as I went through this old site of mine, the fruit of the days when Runescape, babbbling mindlessly, and webmistress'ing were among my passions. In that last article, when I trailed off from the purpose, I wrote some of the most dogmatic lines I ever had, betraying my neutrality. Of course, it doesn't matter, but I'm the type of person who might find joy in criticizing something I wrote a bit back ago like the me of then, having spawned from the specific conditioning of then, was a different person. Then again, I don't really know although I've said those words a lot these late days.

But anyways, I was just thinking that my last "bit of personal philosophy" was rather emotionally charged and biased towards well... Existing with emotions. I must admit, I do believe it can be nice to imagine living a mindless life where your purpose is predefined for you by foreign entities which find reasoning for their own activities through emotions. I can't think of any analogies or anything at the moment to explain what I'm trying to convey, but I do simply think that it might be nice to not be plagued by constant thoughts of having a purpose. A computer is a peg that's designed to fit in the square hole, after all.

In any case, I'm also just thinking through this randomness of thoughts that this supposed "News" page is more or less a blog. The Guthix Network was a site I originally made with no intention of amassing an audience. Hence, I set forth that I will cease to be overly conscious of the thoughts of visitors. This was a site made to be written by me but not necessarily made to be read. It is still a Runescape profile site although throughout this site's existence I find, somewhat expectedly, that I was more or less too lazy to consistently update my "Runescape memories". I note that I am a rather unorganized skiller who neither records nor remembers levels and experience, 99's discluded. I only remember my thoughts, the huge pile of conceptualized babble-compositions, each of which I had, at one point or another, decided to abandon within the realms of conceptualization. I'm soemone who becomes overwhelmed with the urge to write then finds myself content upon completing the whole context of my thoughts within my thoughts. It is only when the paper (and the pen!) is already placed before me that I ever feel compelled to actually record these bursts of expression for I am the-almighty-mistress-of-laziness who will not afford herself any inconvenience.

To sum up this little bable-composition, which was indeed conveniently typed while I was already at the computer... I babble too much, the Guthix Network may or may not ever receive new pages, and this "News" page is more or less a blog.

Posted on 24 Jul 2008 07:14:53 by shadow_files

A few things

If you even visit this site, you're probably thinking something along the lines of, "Whoa! Shadow's updating! So, she didn't die after all."

Well, I haven't died. I've just been lazy. Laziness is almost like dying in a sense though, or at least it makes your work die. Anyways, I just sort of looked at this site today, and I decided to add a few things since well...This site seems outdated. I've added a few screenshots to the Screenshot Archive, and I've written a fairly quick article in the Shadow's Achievements section to sort of summarize what's gone on with my skilling.

In general, I have quite a few ideas for what I could add to this site, and I do hope to get around to updating though I cannot assure myself that I can stop being lazy. I don't suppose it really matter all that much since, unlike what Shadow of the Desert had become, I make this site purely for myself. I honestly don't really care about how many visitors The Guthix Network gets since it really is my personal site. And, I don't really get why I've made this site in the first place then, but I guess it's like wanting to publish a book. Anyone can publish something these days, so it doesn't really mean much to have something published out there, but there's just a sense of...being more a part of the web of society.

I can't claim to understand my own feelings all that completely. I can't really claim to completely like my word choice in this news article that falters at some point. But, I guess one of the things about The Guthix Network is that basically everything in this site is speed written. And, while the result can be rather unpolished writing, I feel that it better captures the emotions of the moment, the thoughts that went on exactly at the times of writing.

That's exactly what this site is for me, a historical record of my life, at least in the Runescape perspective. You see, I really do think this all up as I go along. I just had a realization within the writing of this article. I might go back and fix up any grammatical mistakes, but I don't think I'd go much further than that. Alot of this news article is sort of just rambling, though, isn't it? Eh.

You know what?

I'll just say that well..Life is good, and in the past, I used to have suicidal thoughts. Like.."Life has no purpose in the end. Why should I bother living?" "I'll die eventually." I suppose they're the kinds of thoughts that mostly everyone thinks one time or another. But, life really is worth living, and Runescape, believe it or not, has helped me realize that. And, I can't explain why. I used to think that by discovering the pointlessness of life I had come to the most logical conclusion. And, I suppose life really would be pointless if there was nothing out there but logic. But, we don't live in just a world of logistical processings.

We have emotions. It is our emotions that drives us to want to live and gives us purpose in life. Our emotions are honed through other people.

I feel sorry for the computers. They live an empty life of only logistical processing. No thoughts, no emotion. No purpose.

Well, my little bit of life philosophy must have been fun to read. I've completely trailed off from the point of this article. Maybe I should extend The Guthix Network slightly beyond just being a Runescape profile site but to also be about my life in general with the focus being Runescape.

I'll consider it, but for now, I think I'll just sit back and enjoy life.

Posted on 29 Sep 2007 01:13:25 by shadow_files

Renovations..

I really haven't been paying too much attention to this site at all, and when I look at this site again, I pretty much realize just how much is outdated and should be removed or edited. For example, the Death Triangle, while nice in concept, pretty much never came to exist. Or, if anything, I couldn't really be a part of the Death Triangle. My friends who are in the Death Triangle are PKers, but I am most definitely a skiller. So, of course, I will try to motivate myself to change some of the stuff around a bit including actually making the screenshot section worthy of existence. I probably won't start any sooner than Sunday, though, since my clan, Gielinor Faction is currently in a five day skilling war which ends at 7:00 PM EST July 21 or 12:00 AM GMT July 22. I am currently burning logs for the clan woodcutters.

Posted on 20 Jul 2007 10:54:20 by shadow_files

It's Been a Long Time..

The Guthix Network seems so dead right now. It's somewhat ironic since I've been playing Runescape all this time, and I've thought of this site, but I just can't come to actually do anything with it. I guess there's no motivation for me. The only incentive in keeping this site to my knowledge is simply to log all my Runescape adventures for memory, but yet at the time, it doesn't really seem necessary although I feel the regret of looking back and wishing I had logged exact dates and such.

I guess, I really should start thinking about this site a bit more since I have the domain, I've already done quite a bit for it, and a site that encompasses all my memories of the game would be very nice for the future.

Posted on 11 Jul 2007 15:37:12 by shadow_files

Guthix.Net Has Been Launched!

Well, the site has actually existed for as long as the domain was registered in early May, but the Home Page is now presentable rather than being just blank. I'll eventually get around to putting the sidebar categories up, but right now, there really isn't enough content for organization to make much of a difference.

Also, this site hasn't technically been released to the public. Only a select few friends and the rather small group of those who visit my Pokemon fansite, Shadow of the Desert know of this site's existence. It rather unknown to the Runescape community, and I do not intend on making it known until there is some decent amount of content up.

Anyways, I have many plans for the growth of this site. The site is really a means for me to keep a historical record of my times of Runescape passion, but I hope all of you visiting will enjoy it.

Posted on 26 May 2007 22:08:20 by shadow_files